3 egg whites

and a piece of toast

I just feel so fucking fat. I feel like I will never be thin. I feel like a failure, I feel lazy, I feel gross. Looking at myself just brings up feelings of disgust. 

All I fucking want to do is purge.

PURGE PURGE PURGE PURGE

Because that’s all I’ve ever known for the past 7 years.

Okay starting over

at 124.4.

UGH! At least it’s not as bad as I was expecting. I’ve just been drinking…and eating…no more. I can drink a little, and eat even less. Fuck food.

I shouldn’t be as upset as I am

but I can’t handle this.

People just don’t want me around, do they?

You’re looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
You just keep going to the bathroom always say you’ll be right back